I've gone though a lot of emotions with this process. We found out in Mid-March that our best option would be to to move to AZ. This decision came about only 3 days after we had decided to wait at least another year before moving. But life throws you curve balls. And as the time has passed I feel more and more like this is the best time to move.
Of course there are times when I feel like we are making a huge mistake, but I assume that's natural. It's not like moving 1800 miles is an easy thing to do. Neither of us has family out west. And I think that's my biggest concern. I've always been near to family. When I was growing up we'd visit my grandparents almost monthly even though they lived 6 hours away. And I guess it's just really hard knowing that I wont be able to see them anytime I want. Now its going to take major planning to visit.
I know this is hard for my husband too, but he doesn't seem to have as many fears as I do.
Even so, I love the thought of moving there. I've lived in Illinois all my life (except my very early baby years when I was in Kentucky). And I am so very tired of snow. This past winter was really hard on me. Depression set in like I have never seen before, and I couldn't handle it. The longer winter held out the worse it got. It's sad to say but I had several nights of suicidal thoughts. So it's probably better that we leave before the next winter, I might not be able to make it through the next one. I'll be happy when snow is a choice not a lifestyle.
I live in the northern suburbs of Chicago, and I am not a city person. Give me some open land and I'll be pleased as punch all day long, lock me up in a city and it wont be long before I'm tearing my hair out. I'm hoping to be able to slow down once we get there. I'm tired of trying to keep up with everyone I've ever known.
I know it's going to be really tough leaving everyone and everything I know, but I really believe its for the best.
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